Perception

It's funny how little you really understand things as a child, but how your perceptions mold your expectations in adulthood. I've always felt like anyone older than me always 'had it all figured out' and really knew what was going on. I remember looking up to the umpires at my little league games and thinking they were so cool and knew it all. But then a few years later I was an umpire, in that exact position and didn't have a clue.
This is something that still happens all the time. I walk through my life looking at others who seem like they've got it together. You know, all their ducks in a row and such. I still think that. Everyone's got it figured out except for me.
But the thing is, as I get older I realize that no one does. Not my parents, peers, friends. No one. Even the coolest, most successful people can't tell you what will happen tomorrow or what it's all for. They may fool themselves into thinking that they are the master of their own destiny, but they are doing just that, fooling themselves. The world is out of our control. Each choice we make is a privilege in that it can be taken away at any time. We can make the choice to stay inside our home all day, but if there's a fire in your house, your choice is taken away.
My point is simply that we are given the perception of having 'free-will' but it simply isn't so. We may have the free-will to choose to follow God or not, but we do not have free-will to govern the events of our lives in there entirety.
So I guess the best we can do is buy in to the perception and hope for the best. Make choices as if we are in control and deal with it when we aren't.
That's all I've got to say about it right now.

Heading up to Connecticut this weekend for Nicole and Dave's wedding. Should be a good time.